Woohoo 17th!
Holy crap, turning 17 in 30 minutes!
I can literally still remember my last birthday crystal clear. I cried as the hour hand struck midnight. My family life was a nightmare and I felt like I didn’t know who I belonged with anymore.
That’s kind of how the midnight for my 16th went. It’s been a year since that day…. Can’t even wrap my head around it! I have changed and grown in more than one ways over the last year. Some of the changes aren’t the best, I’ll admit, but there isn’t much I can do about it now..
Gosh.. I’m trying to look back at the most important single event that happened to me in the last year.. Can’t even pick one! So much has happened! It’s almost dizzying..
I was 16 when I first thought I was in love. Maybe I WAS in love.. For the first time ever. And 16 marks the age where the heartbreaks start. At least for me anyways..
In about half an hour I’ll be a year older. A year wiser too? How about more mature? Or maybe just more of an idiot lol. I’m not bitter though. Not bitter about anything that happened last year.. Not bitter about leaving that age behind.. Just.. Amazed I guess is the right word. About two or three years ago, I could not have IMAGINED the changes that could implement in someone’s, specially my life within a matter of a year. I’m a different person now.
See that scares me. Does that mean that with each passing year, more changes will turn me into a completely different person than what I’d ever been? Will I be able to recall memories and look back and say “whoa i used to be like that”?
I honestly don’t know what is planned out for me in the coming years. Neither do I wish to figure it out anytime soon. I want to go where I’m meant to be. I’ll go wherever I can find happiness. As for now, all I can ask for is a merry 17th year of my life.
Cheers to that.
